Why Can't I Self-Motivate?

It seems like I've been sitting on a book for a long time now. The first book did took 3 years to complete, but "Dragonfly" was created in only a few months. I'm really excited about the ideas I have, and the beginning stages of some of the other works I've begun. 

But lately, I'm really lacking in motivation. And failing mostly in self-motivation...

The next story in the series I started with the alliteration of letters, as in "P" for Pig and Penguin, makes great use of the letter "S." The theme of the story takes place in the sea, with Swordfish and Stingray starring as the main characters. The story is complete! But the pictures are what is slowing me down this time. For the first book, the story took a good couple of years to develop, but the pictures came pretty quickly. I wanted the "S" book to be done in time for the new school year, but I set it down, and haven't really picked it back up.

So why can't I Self-Motivate? Do I really have that much going on that I can't handle another project or two on the side? I don't think so. If I did, I wouldn't have the time to write this post! Am I disinterested in writing? Have I given up on fulfilling dreams of making books for children (of all ages) to enjoy? Never. So then, am I just lazy? It's probably that... :)

I went through a phases like this in music. When I was younger, I was sure I wanted to be doing something in the music industry. Whether it was writing, recording, promoting, whatever, I wanted to be somewhere on the front lines of record deals and tours. But as seasons in my life started to change, I stepped away from those dreams. After a few months away, I always seemed to come back, full force, ready to give it another go. Even though my passion for music has shifted from wanting a career there to now a fun hobby, I am still excited with the spark of new ideas and creative melodies and harmonies that still surface.

So maybe this is true of writing also. I don't know enough authors to compare notes on this with, but maybe others go through these phases as well. The continual flow of ideas is what keeps me hanging on, and even though I haven't been actively pursuing the completion of the current project, I know that creativity is what will continue to inspire me to try. 

For those of you who have been following my journey as a writer, I appreciate your patience. As other things around me calm down, I know the spark needed to light the fire beneath me will get me moving on completing not only 1, but 2 new projects that I hope to have out be the holiday season. Thank you for your continued support!:)

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